shadow of penumbra:

Desperation, bleakness, and confusion seem abundant
in my heart and mind.

A complete sense of lost has taken its toll
I don't know if I want to feel anymore.

I feel like a shadow, dark and empty
living in someone else not myself.

All my actions and feelings seem to depend
on others thought.

But today as I sit alone and feel like a shadow,
I'll remember the sun arises from the darkness.

So I'll take all these wrong feelings and plant
them in shadows, see if they grow to a different sense.